Saturday, June 13, 2009

What Is Love

Is love that child looking up to a parent clinging on every bit of encouragement you can give, or is it the joy and happiness that child brings into that parents life every day. Is love just a word you use to make you feel at ease with someone or a feeling of undying emotion that lets you know that you cant go on with the other.

Love as we know it can also be a painful thing cant it? I'm not just talking about cheaters and having your loved ones run away with your heart. I'm talking about the empty feeling Love can give you, that all alone feeling, the feeling that makes you wish you were dead. The kind I felt when my daughter was born the next day her lung collapsed and for 6 days was in an nicu unit incubator Hopeless, empty, blame,hate wonderful feelings to feel with love. Now my son he has a disease called neurofibromatosis (cafe o lait) it can affect almost anything it wants but mainly ears eyes and spine along with fibroid in or on the skin, Love him with all my heart but in a couple of days he goes in for his third brain surgery in 8 months to cure his water swelling his brain. Again i reiterate LOVE is feeling pain, feeling hopeless cant help him put his life in someone else's hands and you call that a fathers love. Well yes because love is taking the good with the bad saying i love you is easy being there and showing it in good times and bad times. Showing love isn't buying expensive things its giving the courage the respect, knowledge and holding someones hand in those moments of despair and in moments of jubilation as well.

Love what is love is it a good feeling or a bad one or a combination of both.
Is love meant to bring us together or destroy us because situations like mine its not uncommon to have hate and resentment for your partner and blame them or yourself for the situation which can destroy a relationship. Is love what you feel for someone or something or is love a emotion you express.

When you think of love its supposed to be grand and not to be made to feel bad till the end. In reality love is a perfect combination of good and bad that you get through with the relationship you have built. It is kind of like a house if you will, you can have all the best furniture the best car in the drive way best decor and even have it paid off but if the foundation is cracked and the roof has a small leak the first big storm that hits it is going to bring it down to the ground some will walk away from it angry and unaware of why it happened and others will rebuild so it can never ever happen again and that to me spells out love .

The Good Old Days

How many of us sit and think back to when times were so much more simple?,a time when we were truly free, happy , and living life. A time when that ice cream on the weekend was a dollar and no matter what you were going to get one, going out and playing or just hanging out was a real joy. The days when kids could run around without a care in the world, and just be kids. Playing on streets in playgrounds and in parks.
Now its 5 bucks for that ice cream and that's outrageous,going out is usually pain staking work and is usually all work no play. Sitting down for drinks is mostly a quick drink, and not that same all day experience of going to the store and buying it walking to the spot and chill there for the day while enjoying the drink and the company. As for Kids running around without a care in the world, well that's insane now, if it's not for the sick and twisted freaks out there its them damn video games, exercise pretty much consists of holding a remote control pad or wiggling fingers on a key board and not for a creative purpose at all.
Oh god how I miss those days hanging out with friends and cousins till lord knows when. Doing what we wanted when we wanted with no worries about anything ( without getting into serious trouble).I'm not exactly sure why those times fade away but they sure do fade, those great times we had growing up. Maybe that's it, we grow up and take on responsibilities of our own that we didn't worry about before. We start to work harder at what we want going forward and lose track of what we had before. We start to distance ourselves from everything that was pure and true and open our arms to the unknown because lets face it who really knows whats ahead, is it success or failure? was it worth it or not ? the whole time getting further from the places, things,and people that were everything for you until all that's left is a memory and we call those moments THE GOOD OLD DAYS
The good old days, I would give anything to feel like I did then, to feel free to not have time lines, a time when children were pretty safe and a time when the big guys watched out for the little guys. The days when we can say we were true to ourselves and others. Some say that was then this is now and just move on but one thing is for sure I will never forget the way I felt the friendships I had and those great and I mean great times we had and no matter how terrible i feel now or whats bothering me I simply go somewhere quiet sit back and remember THE GOOD OLD DAYS